I Cried Over A Book I Haven’t Read Yet

Kris and I went to the bookstore not too long ago. I still had a decent amount of gift cards left over from Christmas, so we decided to buy more books that we have no room for.

I’m sure you all know that I love the Warriors series by Erin Hunter. It’s a middle grade series about wild cats. The first book of this now 35-plus-book series came out when I was 11-years-old. I started reading it then and have gotten behind in the series, but I try to catch up when I can.

I’m on the first book of the fourth series (the writers are currently on the seventh series), but I only have books 1-3 of the fourth series (there are six books in each series).

Every time we go to the bookstore I check the kids section to see if books 4-6 are in hardcover. Since they’re older, they’re all in paperback. But I have books 1-3 in hardcover and I like it to be uniform on my bookshelf.

Anyway, I probably have to order them online, but I turned around and noticed the second book of the seventh series had just come out. Kris and I picked it up and was looking at the list of characters in the beginning.


There are four clans with so many cats in each other, plus other characters, so there’s always a little of cats, their rank, and their home. I’ve always enjoyed reading the names, but the main reason I picked it up was because I was curious about Firestar.

Firestar was the main character in the first series. He found his way into the wild in the very first book and climbed up the ranks of his Clan and became leader. He found a mate, had kittens, protected his Clan and friends, etc.

The second series and beyond aren’t written with Firestar as the main character, but he was always there. He was the leader of the Clan, after all. That, and the second series are about his kids and then the next series is about his grandkids and so on.

Anyway, so I don’t confuse you guys further (I hope most of you are following me… it’s a huge series and it’s hard to explain), I’ll get to the point.

The latest book, the second book of the seventh series, did not have Firestar as the leader. In fact, he wasn’t listed at all.

In other words, he died.

I have no idea when he died since I’m so far behind in the series, but I’d be lying if I didn’t say my heart broke. I felt as though my childhood shattered, as dramatic as that may sound.

Then Kris noticed (and had to mention to me even though I was already crying in public…) that Sandstorm, Firestar’s mate wasn’t there either. So she must have died as well. Graystripe, Firestar’s best friend, was in the elder den, which means he won’t last much longer.

I teared up again when I told my mother I cried in Barnes & Noble over a book I hadn’t read and even as I’m writing this post I’m tearing up again. (I’m a girl, guys. Cut me some slack.)

But the thing is, I’m amazed that Firestar’s death, even though I haven’t even read it yet, affected me so much.

I grew up following Firestar’s story. Warriors was the book series that got me into reading in the first place. Erin Hunter was the author(s) who opened my eyes to the wonderful world of reading and writing.

I never thought Firestar would ever die. He was the one who started it all. He was the protagonist for a while, after all. He’s immortal, right? It’s the seventh series, the timeline for the books must span over years and years. They’re writing about a brand new generation, so it makes sense that Firestar is no longer there, even though he had nine lives (from being leader).

But I’m still in shock.

And, if I’m reacting to his death like this now, what’s going to happen when I actually read that scene in… well, I don’t know what book he actually dies in.

This is a crappy feeling, but I love it at the same time. It means this series has a special place in my heart even though I was only 11 when it began and I haven’t been able to keep up with it as quickly as I would have liked. I’m not 23-years-old and crying over the series in the kids section at Barnes & Noble. How silly does that sound?

I guess I have nothing else to say but thank you to Erin Hunter, every single one of them who created these books and allowed my imagination and creativity to run wild (no pun intended, but I have to say that was pretty clever!).

Now excuse me while I go start the next book and anticipate this dreadful moment…

Have you read the Warriors series? Is there a special book or series that has a permanent spot in your heart? Let me know in the comments below!

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Today Was A Bust…


Today my sister and I went to Barnes and Noble. We went about our normal routine; we went to Dunkin’ Donuts for breakfast, Starbucks for drinks, and Barnes and Noble to write. However, we weren’t there for any more than an hour when my dad called. We switched from Verizon to Comcast today and with Comet and Chip at home, he didn’t want to shut them in the bedroom and listen to them bark all afternoon. My sister and I ended up going home and taking the dogs to Nanny’s house where we stayed for about an hour and a half. They have no wi-fi, either so we couldn’t work on our writing at all.

By then, the guy was still at our house, but I had to go to work. So we went back to my house, leaving the dogs, I grabbed my things and went to work. When I got home from work, I had to re-connect the internet and now my laptop is being extremely slow. I assume it’s just trying to get used to the new connection, or I’m hoping so anyway. However, I am in no mood to write now.

While we were at Barnes and Noble, I did write a tiny bit, but it was under 1,000 words. And I never wrote yesterday, so I feel like I’m a bit behind. And because of that, I’m beginning to get annoyed at my writing. I have three novels completed and never bothered to edit any of them.

Well, that’s not true. I’m on the seventh draft of Diary of a Lover, but I never once edited Hunter, which I finished back in August of 2011. Saving Each Other I just finished less than a month ago, so I’m not going to get back into that just yet…I’m kind of sick of those characters.

However, I do have three children’s books that are completed, edited and all, but I don’t bother trying to get them published. Why? I don’t know. That’s what I think I’m going to do when I finish this post. I think I’m going to try searching for publishers and such. At least if I get those three children’s books out there, I would get my foot in the door for whenever I publish a novel, the extra money would be a plus, and maybe it would motivate me a little more to get something else out there.

I asked my sister to edit Hunter the other day. She hasn’t started, yet, but I’m hoping that once she edits it, it will motivate me to edit it and keep at it. Honestly, I wrote that so long ago I don’t even remember what happens in the book. It’s quite sad.

I told myself that, because I’m so into The Blank Page right now, I’m going to finish it. Then once I finish it, I’m going to work strictly on editing for a little while. I know my new year’s resolution was to write more, but editing is a big part of writing, even if I’m not adding word after word after word. It’ll suck because I absolutely hate editing, but if it needs to get done, then I’m going to get it done.

I’m not going to write anymore tonight because I am just not in the mood and I know if I force myself, I’m going to mess up the entire novel. Hopefully, I’ll get back into it tomorrow morning. I had a good routine going: I woke up early every morning, worked on my websites for a bit, wrote for an hour, and then posted on here. I have not done that since Tuesday…but Tuesday I had no school and no work and nothing to do, so I kind of wanted to take advantage of the fact that I could have stayed in bed for the entire day. With all the crap I have been doing lately, no one can blame me for that.

On a good note, I did start my resolution about reading more. Does everyone know the series Warriors by Erin Hunter? Well, there are so many books that I have lost count, but I do have most of them. I have read a few, but I decided to re-read them…especially because one of my RPG websites are based after this series. Last year, I read the first five books, so I decided to start reading them again starting with the sixth book. If I didn’t have work or anything else going on in my life right now, I would have finished it the day I started it. But we’ll take baby steps.

I’ll talk to you all tomorrow…hopefully after I write for an hour. I have work at 1:30 tomorrow, so if I get up early enough maybe I can do a little extra. That would be nice!


2013: 13,645 Words Written
2013: 183 Pages Read