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NaNo 2013

Today marks the first day of NaNoWriMo! To start ourselves off, let’s ask ourselves one important question: Why are we doing this? Why would we want to put ourselves through writing an entire novel in only 30 days when it takes some people years to complete a first draft? Why do we write at all?

For me, this question is easy to answer. There are two reasons why I write: The first reason is because I want to make a name for myself. I never liked my class growing up. Elementary school was fine, we were all young and naive. Middle school got tougher, as so did the kids. When I had gotten into high school I had finally had enough with them.

I hated high school, to put it bluntly. I hated my teachers (I only liked three of them), hated my classmates, my best friend turned against me, and I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder. It got to the point where my body said, “I don’t want to go to school anymore, so I’m not going to!” I sure gave my parents a run for their money. I wouldn’t get out of bed in the morning and refused to go to school. I didn’t even know what was going on with me.

Just like my family and I, my best friend had no idea what was going on with me, either. She asked and when I told her, “I don’t know,” she thought I was lying to her. This is what ended up breaking our friendship. She thought (after being friends since third grade, may I add), I didn’t trust her and such. When I stopped going to school, she spread rumors that I was dead and did many more “mature” things like that.

She knew I liked to write and that I wanted to an author. She liked to write as well (and she was a good writer), but being a published author was never her dream. When I decided to write a novel, she decided she was going to do the exact same thing. She never thought I was going to make it in the writing world. I’m no expert in writing, but I did a lot more research than her. When it came to being an “expert” in writing, I was the expert.  But she wanted to beat me at my own game. And if you want to get technical, she did. She self-published a book. However, she never edited it and never advertised it as she didn’t know how to. She thought that being published was “easy.” She thought she would end up rich and famous from this one book that no one has heard of. She never really understood what it means to be a writer and she probably never will understand.

As much as I’m not happy with her, I have to thank her. It’s because of her that I want to write. I need to show her that I can in fact do something if I put my mind to it. I can follow my dreams. I want to make a name for myself and when people I graduated with see my book on the shelves at Barnes & Noble, they’ll think: “She got somewhere in life.”

I may have fallen off the face of the earth to them, but I did not “die.” I felt as though I was being slowed down as I already knew what I wanted to do. I took charge of my own life and I’m going to make something out of it.

Here’s the second reason I write: I love it. I love creating something out of nothing. I love having fictional characters to talk and argue with inside my head. I love creating brand new worlds and adventures. But it’s too much to keep all to myself. I want to share these things with the world and I’m hoping they’ll enjoy it just as much as I do.

I love the hard work. I love the research. I love the imagination and the creativity. It’s the best feeling in the world to create something and be proud of yourself for what you had just accomplished. No, I am not a published author. Yes, I have finished manuscripts, but no, they are not edited. It takes a long of time, hard work, and determination, to write and edit an entire novel. I have stories published throughout the internet on websites, but nothing is “self-published;” especially for money (I’m hoping soon, though).

My reason for doing NaNoWriMo is to kick myself into gear. I want to get myself into a writing habit. I want to write a certain amount every single day. I want to find the time to write every day and not stress over school or work. I want to do something I love. Something I’m proud of. Something I’m good at. And that’s all I could ask for.

So grab a snack and some caffeine, sit at your desk, and pray that you get carpel tunnel. Because then you’ll know that you’re doing it right. You’ll know that you’re getting something productive done. No pain, no gain. Right?

Word Count: 1,717

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Sad News

I haven’t updated this in a while with very good reasons…

1. Everyone knows that we switched from Verizon to Comcast, correct? Well, the internet still refuses to work. It’s getting pretty annoying. I can’t use my laptop at all. I can’t use it to work on my websites, I can’t use it to update this, and I can’t use it for school. My dad is bringing my laptop to a guy to completely clean it out because it had a virus on it a year or so ago. All the other laptops work (sometimes), so we’re wondering if my laptop still has some bits of the virus on it and that’s why it refuses to work. So I’m going to be out of a laptop for a little while…well, I already have been out of a laptop.

I’m using the school computer right now so–I hate to say this–it’s a good thing that I go to school five days a week. I need to get absolutely everything done at school. It’s such a pain, though. The only thing I can use my own laptop for it for writing on Word. Which brings me to the worst part of this post as well as the other reason as to why I haven’t updated in so long…

2. My flash drive broke. My sister tried to fix it and the computer guy my dad knows tried to fix it. It’s completely dead. The guy said he could fix it, but the software would cost 800 dollars. He said he could ship it to Brazil so it would be cheaper, but…I said no. That’s too much. My uncle is going to try to fix it, but I really have my doubts that it will work. We’ll have to see, but I’m pretty sure it’s gone.

It really upset and discouraged me. All of my novels were on there. I didn’t have any other back-ups to the novels because my computer had gotten the virus. Along with school work, Sunday school stuff, and website stuff, this is everything I lost:

  • Hunter — I printed it out to edit it, so worse comes to worst, I’ll just have to type it up again.
  • Hunted — The sequel to Hunter…I was half way through it and now it’s gone.
  • Diary of a Lover — I printed this out to edit it, too, so again I can just type it up again.
  • Saving Each Other — My 2012 NaNo that I finished last December…100% gone. I had no back-ups and none of it was printed out…I have to start from scratch all over again.
  • The Blank Page — It wasn’t finished, but as you all know, I have been working hard on this one a lot. Now I have to start completely over again.
  • Asking Bobby & Ashley’s Day at the Aquarium — Both of these are printed out, so they’re safe.
  • Fast Friends — Didn’t get too far in this one, but at least it was better than nothing…now it is nothing.
  • Echo — I was almost done with this one…gone.
  • Last Friday — I wrote this in a notebook and I had one more chapter left. Typing it up took me a really long time and now I’m going to have to do it again…at least it’s not completely gone.
  • The Others — My very first NaNo and the only one I every won. I never finished the novel, but I only had one or two more chapters left…another one gone.
  • Far Away — A love story I started, re-started, and re-started again…I got pretty far with it and now that’s gone, too.
  • Diary of a Killer — Didn’t get too far, but I really liked where it was going.
  • A Job to get Done — I loved this one. I was over 50 pages into it…gone.
  • Pyro — The origin story of my muse…the one and only character who speaks to me while I write. He popped into my head long before I even decided to make him a character in a story. I have no idea where he came from, but now I have to write his story all over again.
  • The Battle of Cooper’s Place — A script I wrote for Script Frenzy…it was my first one and I won. It sucked, but now it’s gone.
  • Halfway to Heaven — Another script I wrote. I loved this script. I was going to turn it into a novel, too…now I have to re-write that whole thing.
  • Four Fathers — A TV show I based off of a Ninja Turtles FanFiction I wrote. It was coming along pretty well.
  • All of my FanFiction stories…which was somewhere in the 100s, so I can’t even list them all to you.

And there you have it. 18 stories lost…there were more, but they were only a page or so in so they weren’t really important because they were small prompts and such.

I cried. I’ll admit that. I was thinking of everything that I lost, all that time and imagination I spent on those stories…and they’re all gone. I have to say that it was a real eye-opener for me, though. That saying is really true…”you never know what you have until it’s gone.”

So I decided that not only am I going to keep up with writing more, I’m going to focus more on finishing everything that I start. Looking at that list, I had a ton of ideas and characters roaming around in my head. So I think it’s time to jot down small ideas instead of switching completely over to a new novel. I have a new novel in the works at the moment and since I’m in the mood to write it, I think I’m going to start off with that one. I still have a lot of planning to do for it, but that’s alright. In the meantime, I can start editing some novels…well, just Hunter and Diary of a Lover since those are the only novels I have left at the moment.

But now I think about it, I have a ton of novels that are started in notebooks…I should really go through my notebooks, huh?

Anyway, let this be a lesson learned for all of you! I have no idea how my flash drive broke, but I had two (well, now one). I should have put everything on both. I’ll keep that in mind for next time. So I’ll try to writing again as soon as possible, but I kind of need to wait until I get my laptop back. I think my dad is going to call Comcast, too…even though everyone else’s work, they still go on the fritz sometimes. Hopefully this will be the end.