Future Thoughts

Playing It Over And Over In My Mind…

This goes along with the obnoxious post that I posted here yesterday.

I mentioned that Kris and I tend to talk about our future a lot. I have no idea what gets us thinking about it, but I guess it’s just the feeling of “wondering.” I haven’t really talked to her in a little while about it, but I have been thinking about it myself lately. I also said that yesterday I was talking to my cat, Hunter about it. He meowed back at me…if only I knew what he was saying.

I said that I had always had a plan. I wanted to be a teacher. Then I wanted to be a writer and a teacher. Well, I still have those plans. I’m working towards those goals. I went to school for teaching and I am a teacher’s assistant at a preschool. I just mailed my lead teacher application the other day. I will be going to school for English starting this Fall and I also have a few novels I have written and completed. I just need to seriously edit them.

But then I really got to thinking and even though I practically wanted to be a teacher my whole life, the other major thing I’ve always wanted to be was a mom.

I babysit my cousins a lot and I babysit for another family a lot. I need mom hours at work and I can’t get them now. But when I’m a director of a preschool and a writer at the same time, how am I going to find time to spend with my kids?

Yes, I know. I turn 20 in about a month, so why am I thinking about what I’m going to do with my kids now? But I feel as though I need a plan.

The other day I was home alone. I woke up early, made a cup of coffee, and sat down at my desk to write. I had my turtle, Raph out of her tank. She was getting into all sorts of messes which distracted me from writing (she likes to go into small nooks and crannies, but we’re in the basement…you have no idea how many spiders are in those small nooks and crannies!).

Raph

I also have my cat, Hunter down there to babysit her. He likes to watch her and lately when he starts going somewhere she isn’t supposed to (for example, the laundry room) he begins to meow and howl obnoxiously loud until he has my undivided attention. The best part is that I don’t have to pay him.

Hunter

Then there’s my pip-squeak of a dog, Chip. Sometimes she sits on my lap while I write and other times she sits on the stairs and barks. God only knows why.

Chip

So I was thinking to myself that I would absolutely love to have that every day. Wake up early, get the kids off to school, get the husband off to work, then it’s just me, the animals (fish is going to get thrown into the mix soon), and my writing. Of course, I guess I would occasionally clean the house, too.

But when I thought of this ideal lifestyle, I realized that no where in there involves teaching. I want to own a preschool. How can I stay home all day writing with my pets while my kids are at school then hang out with my kids, do homework with them, and cook dinner when I’m running my own preschool? This is problematic.

Then I thought maybe I could hold off the directing until my kids are a little older and I can just teach in the mean time. Then again, I only turn 20 next month…when am I having kids? Not for a while, I know that much. So why am I thinking about this so much? I have no idea.

All I know is that there are so many things I want to be doing and there is just not enough time. Writing is the number one priority and I want to have kids and I want to teach. How am I supposed to fit everything together to work perfectly like puzzles pieces meant for the same picture? And I know that there are going to be so many other things that I’m going to want to do, as well. It really sucks not knowing what’s going to happen in the future. I wish I could plan everything out, but I can’t.

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6 thoughts on “Future Thoughts

  1. Teach first, have kids, then become stay-at-home mom and write while the kids are at school and your hubby brings home a steady paycheck.

    More seriously, these are great thoughts for the future. Mine always consisted of pets, writing, and probably a part-time job for steady money. Almost the same as yours, but without the kids, haha!

    • Yes, we all know you’d rather have the dogs as your children. 🙂

      But honestly, that’s what I was thinking. My only issue is that I want to have kids sooner rather than later (yes, I know I still have to move out, get engaged, and get married…oh, don’t forget having money, too). I want to have a good few years in teaching before I become a stay at home. But I guess we’ll just have to wait and see what happens.

      We’re going to get through it together, anyway. 😉

  2. You will be amazed at what you can fit in when you really want/need to….I work full time, write, perform, am a single parent and compete my horse ( let’s not even mention the other pets), so it’s all doable…..and life has a habit of throwing a curve ball now and again, so sometime plans move and change.
    Relax but keep writing

    • I’m going to try. I’ve gotten this far, at least!

      I would love to mention the other pets, lol. My boyfriend thinks it would be easier for us to just own a zoo with all the pets I want. 🙂

  3. Wow, Rachel, you sound just like me at about your age. I taught first, got married, had children, became a stay-at-home mom, started writing, took my kids out of public school and homeschooled them, and then became an editor. So now I have all of my wishes–wife, mom, teacher, writer, editor. Oh, and I have two dogs and a cat all in a matter of about 16 years–I am 42. The time flies.Take one step at a time.

    • I’m trying to take one step at a time, but I am just too impatient for that, lol.

      I’m glad that you’ve achieved your goals. Good luck to you in the future. 🙂

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